Episode 11: Start Getting Excited!
There are new boxes to tick!
It's the 30th of December 2023, and I am sitting in bed with my laptop, typing away as I sip on a drink to see where my thoughts and musings take me. I feel compelled and inspired to write. I have a niggling feeling to unpack, so I will write about it because it is a common feeling that we all experience from time to time.
’See… Strangely, even though I accomplished a lot, I wish I could have done more. I am experiencing the ever-familiar curse of having infinite desires and finite resources. It is the inner conflict of being aware of one's capabilities and restrictions. To know what could have been had circumstances been different. To see that things could have been better. This is an uncomfortable feeling I am sitting with right now since I am too grown to repress feelings.
It is in our design to have this innate conflict between the awareness of possibilities and the limitations of not having enough room to make such possibilities a reality. We desire peace and see clearly how it can be achieved, but circumstances get in the way, whether it is the laws of physics, human nature or capitalism.
No matter what, the body can only take so much. No matter what, the sun rises and sets and our circadian rhythms must comply. No matter what, we must sleep, and if we push ourselves too far, we diminish our health resources and make it even harder to accomplish the things we desire
The mind can do nothing but infinitely create ways to express ourselves; however, our physical world has limited energy, time, space, tools and capabilities. It's all rather frustrating and humbling, and I am still working on surrendering to these limits because there is nothing I can do about most of them.
As the year wraps up, with its long, cold nights and gloomy winter days, I can't help but lament how there is so much to do but so little time to do it. I have many things to achieve, and many boxes on my to-do list remain unticked. It almost seems impossible to complete. However, upon closer inspection, the completed tasks significantly outnumber the outstanding ones. I have done amazingly! I remember how insurmountable the tasks from the ticked boxes once seemed before completing them, yet now I take them for granted.
Frequently, we dwell on what we lack rather than appreciating our current accomplishments. Yet, such a perspective is unfair to us, as natural as it may be. The fact that there's more to achieve doesn't negate the progress we've already made. Therefore, tonight, I'll reflect on my journey and acknowledge how much ground I've covered. Then, tomorrow, I'll focus on streamlining my approach to make the most of my finite resources moving forward. Having a good track record, I can confidently go ahead into the new year, knowing factually that I get things done and honour my desires. I must just replace this feeling of constraint with a sense of excitement for the things I am about to do!
Happy New Year
To Health, Balance and Joy!
Tanya
xo
